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[Nov. 19th, 2006|10:32 am] |
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Venting...
This livejournal has definetley beeen shunned for awhile and i am pretty sure that when I use to be on it all the time making posts I at least had something to vent to.
Here goes nothing.
Lately I dont exist but am always aroound and thats not cool.
I still hate the parental situation.
Friends are starting to become more and more clear to me.
I dont trust anyone except for a select few.
If i love you... you know it.
I am looking for fun..finding it in alll the wrong places is my style.
I am back into my drawing and painting...somehow my muse came back.
I think that boyz are fun.
I think that girls(excluding my close friends) are scum and talk shit toooo much.
work still sucks.
christmas is quickly approaching.
I am poooooooooooooooooooooooooor.
I wanna go get crunk. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2006|12:43 pm] |
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We are naive we are ignorant.we are oblivious and celebrant,we are tainted anticipated, arrogant and brillaint.
Go listen to good music. People. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2006|12:35 am] |
I neeed something.
Something is missing. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2006|01:55 pm] |
Me and liz just left tonys.
Hoky shit why |
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[Sep. 10th, 2006|05:58 pm] |
So I am looking out of my windows and probably getting overrrrr excited about the fact that not only is it gonna rain but it is probably gonnna pour.
I love the rain.
It is probably one of the only things I truly truly truly adoreeeeeeee in life.
I especially love how inspired I am on rainy days.
So right now I am rereading a book that I read threee years ago. It is called many lives many masters. SOooooo good.
This book truly influenced my ideas of life and the after life. So now I am rereading it cause it is soooo amazing.
Living in my apartment can easily be described as awesome and not productive. Hahaha. We should be doing so much but when I am home I need to rest due to the fact that I don't restt enough at all.
I am a college student now and all I keeep getting from people is.... "You are 18!!! Thats it!!! You look and act so much older." I don't think that this is fact. Then again a person is never a good judge of themselves.
I am very excited about a lot of shows coming up. Veryyyyyyyy. I alsoo I am starting to fall back into my art. I seriously have gone through a little dry spell with no muse. It was rough because art is my sanity and since my life can easily be described as insane I definetly need my art.
I also would like the world to know that I have the best friends in world. I have kinda been going through some insanely rough times lately and just the fact that they are there is enough for me. Truly amazing people.
I have also met some new people lately. And usually I put up a hugeee block.Like I don't let them in as much always close but never close enough. But I don't knoww they seem pretty awesome so only future lj posts can tell.lol.
Alsooooo I want people to pick up the new mars volta record. It is amazing. I know you may think that I am being biast but truly the cd is amazing. I love them.
I miss having a crush. I want to be in love and snuggle. Hahaa okay I take the love part back but I wanna be In "like". I wanna be able to not be soo serious and have fun. Snuggle and watch movies and stuff and then party with friends and not feel weird. I think that this is to much to ask of life because well there is a lot that is to much to ask of life.
I am gonna update again later I am too tired to continue |
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[Aug. 9th, 2006|11:41 pm] |
So I moved into my apartment and though the walls are just primed and not colored due to heat exhaustion and pure exhaustion, and our stairwell leading up is hard core needing some work., and we did not bring our bed frames so we are sleeping like refugees.... I have never been so excited to live anywhere ever!!! I love my apt. I love that it has not been empty since I moved in... people everyday.
That's how I like.
I have also come to the realization that people are fake and place a lot of judgement on others. Life is what it is.
I am not perfect.
I am not a goody good girl.
I am just me.
Take it or leave it.
I am addicted to skittles and quixotic.
I am addicted to rad ass girlfriends who make you feel better than you have been in awhile.
I like dino sharks.
I like the hush sound and me getting to see my preetty lil lady soon.
I like saturday and the plans go through.
I am proud of that band.
I am shocked at some people.
And I love emily and casssandrama. |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2006|11:51 pm] |
I am finding myself the best rock and crawling under it.
Ohhh and I move out by the end of the week |
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[Jul. 20th, 2006|10:16 am] |
That tree at the end of the block looks like it is about to be uprooted. I have felt the car I am in shake a good two times and its kinda scary....but still the rain is the best part of my day bye far. Its so easy to seeeee the beauty in the rain and ignore anything that its damaging....at least it is easier then listening to myu parents loud mouths.
Today my day said I hurt him unbelievably.Today my dad said I can't even begin to imagine what he feels and how bad I treat him. He obviously hasn't been really present the past 18 years... he obviosly hasn't seen me in my pain. He obviously didn't listen to me cry myself to sleep.
My mother will defend him to the ends of the earth. He offends her and she offends me. Its my fault.
How can a man soo social, amazing,and successful be so ignorant of his family.
I am gonna give up.
I am moving out august 1st and my relationship with my parents probably won't be better.
Sad.
Depressing.
Heartbreaking.
Totally reality.
Now I am outside of my doctors office. Fake smiles. Phrases something like" oh no dr. I am totally fineee".
Bogus=fake.
Sylvia plath.
"We shall by morning inherit the earth our foot is in the door"
Hopefully. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2006|08:12 am] |
you are funny.
sooo fucking funny |
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